Son's Gonna Rise

This weekend was super nice. The weather was AMAZING and I spent a couple good daylight hours outside enjoying the city. From my apartment I walked up to Central Park and read for a while, then I went to the Barnes and Noble in Lincoln Square area, then I got some groceries and made myself a nice little taco dinner :) Sunday was just as fun. I spent the entire day with Jarling wandering around and people watching. I'm thankful for her friendship here.

Jarling and I went to a Citizen Cope concert a couple weeks ago:
We were FRONT ROW!
It was awesome because last time I saw him was a couple years ago with Monica in LA and we were in the nose bleeds.

Mom sent me an AMAZING Valentine's Day package!!! So I'm almost done with all the candy, have watched 2 of the 4 seasons of Will and Grace that she sent and have posted up the pictures she sent of the Navarros rockin' the 2010 glasses! I also got a wake up call on Vday from a flower delivery company! My friend Joe sent me flowers and made my day! Monica, my love, also sent me a card! This pouring of love really boosted my happy level. I was having a rough time with the NY winter.

I'm trying really hard to find a new job and improve my situation here. Kady and I think this will really improve my happiness and my life in NY. Better weather would be nice too.

Home

Hayo!
What a frickin' week. For those of you on the Best Coast, you didn't get a taste of the Snowpocalypse that hit the North East this week. It ruined last weekend for me because 1)I didn't make it to DC to see Andrew or to get in all that snowy-goodness and 2)No snow came to NY so it was just cold and sad. I'm coming home.

My DC trip being cancelled was the steamy dog crap on top of a Chinatown-dumpster-like week. So...I went into work this week really bummed still. Monday was ... a typical Monday I guess. But Monday night sucked as much as anything can. I tried to do my taxes online. Suffice it to say I spent a couple hours on the phone SOBBING to mom and went to bed with a cold compress on my eyes. Mom "kicks me back up when I'm down" and tells me exactly what I need to hear to realize I need to sop crying and make changes or accept what's done. Serenity prayer like.

Tuesday was better. My eyes were puffy, I was tired, but non of that mattered when the mailman told me about the snow day declared for Wednesday. Naturally I convinced the boss that it's not safe for us to come in and scored myself a holiday. SKILLZ!

Today, "Snowpocalypse," "Blizzard 2010," "Snowmageddon," was awesome. I slept in, went strollin' around town. Met Kady for some more strollin' and rollin'. The snow was beautiful. I threw snowballs at people from up on the roof.


So to finish I want to put some things out there. It seems I've made up my mind this week to return to CA this September. I don't know if this decision will stick until then. I'm hoping I'll find a job worth staying here for but as of today...I need more breathing room, sunshine and beach. Stay tuned...

California Dreaming

I went to DC again - this time to see Andrew who's there for work. It was awesome. It dumped snow on Saturday and I tried to be out in the downfall as much as possible. Andrew - the southern Californian resident who boasts of wearing shorts and sandals to work in December - was inadequately prepared for the snow but he only complained occasionally. We met up with Rose and John for brunch at a nice place in Dupont Circle - the walk was slow but it was awesome. Then we went out to see Avatar 3D in Chinatown. (I really liked Avatar ... and I was trying not to.) On the way home that night it was still snowing and I tricked Andrew into walking by the White House. It was so peaceful and beautiful! I stopped to make a snow angel! I think it might be my first one ever.


As I lay there in the snow waiting for Andrew to figure how to take a picture on my phone - I had one of those "right before you die" moments where everything was silent and peaceful and it made you realize how fast you've been going and how much you've been missing. I laid there a little longer than necessary staring up at the brownish purplish sky watching the snowfall and hearing nothing but the sound of my own breathing. I've thought about that moment a lot these last few days...
I'm tired but can't get to sleep at a reasonable hour. I stare at the computer most days and my eyes are killing me but I go home and make rings or knit (exercising my eyes even more). Every where I walk I speed walk - I'm always rushing to get somewhere. I am running at full speed (most of the time) but not accomplishing much except keeping a job and paying bills. I wonder if I'd be happier/healthier if I moved to a warmer, more open and spacious place. Like LA.

I'm going back to DC this weekend and CA in March sometime. I'm in a lease in NY until September so I have plenty of time to change my mind a million times. We'll see.