California Dreaming

I went to DC again - this time to see Andrew who's there for work. It was awesome. It dumped snow on Saturday and I tried to be out in the downfall as much as possible. Andrew - the southern Californian resident who boasts of wearing shorts and sandals to work in December - was inadequately prepared for the snow but he only complained occasionally. We met up with Rose and John for brunch at a nice place in Dupont Circle - the walk was slow but it was awesome. Then we went out to see Avatar 3D in Chinatown. (I really liked Avatar ... and I was trying not to.) On the way home that night it was still snowing and I tricked Andrew into walking by the White House. It was so peaceful and beautiful! I stopped to make a snow angel! I think it might be my first one ever.


As I lay there in the snow waiting for Andrew to figure how to take a picture on my phone - I had one of those "right before you die" moments where everything was silent and peaceful and it made you realize how fast you've been going and how much you've been missing. I laid there a little longer than necessary staring up at the brownish purplish sky watching the snowfall and hearing nothing but the sound of my own breathing. I've thought about that moment a lot these last few days...
I'm tired but can't get to sleep at a reasonable hour. I stare at the computer most days and my eyes are killing me but I go home and make rings or knit (exercising my eyes even more). Every where I walk I speed walk - I'm always rushing to get somewhere. I am running at full speed (most of the time) but not accomplishing much except keeping a job and paying bills. I wonder if I'd be happier/healthier if I moved to a warmer, more open and spacious place. Like LA.

I'm going back to DC this weekend and CA in March sometime. I'm in a lease in NY until September so I have plenty of time to change my mind a million times. We'll see.